Prayer and Seeking the Holy Spirit
Holy Spirit, I know that you are present with me right now and I seek to understand and gain insight into what is coming. I sense there are severe changes coming that will happen quickly. I sense this is on a personal level among your people and I sense it is on a national and international level. As I pray I ask that you guard my thoughts from error in my hearing and that I may write a sure word that might edify and inform your people. I perceive on a personal level that changes are coming that will change the lives and direction of your people. They are on a certain track and course at present, but you are coming to abruptly change that course and that direction. One day they will be going one way and by the next day they will be on a totally different path. I feel this will happen almost entirely to all of your people. We are on a certain path that involves our own decisions and desires and that path lacks the elements of your perfect will. These changes are designed to bring into play your more perfect will. We are engaged in many of our own personal goals, but as the time becomes closer to your coming, that our goals and plans will be superseded by your goals, your plans and your will. On the National level and International level events will take place that are designed to bring the world into your will for mankind to accept Jesus, your son, as their Savior. I feel with all my heart that the time is so very short I feel I hardly have time to even write about it here, before it will start to occur. Lord, I confess my own sins that I have not come into your perfect will. I admit and confess that I have had my own will in many and most things, but I desire with all my heart that I might serve you with a pure heart and spirit. Jesus I sense the closeness of your coming and I am seeing and feeling in my heart a greater desire to “get my house in order”. I desire your return more than ever before… and I desire to change more than ever before. Lord, find me when you come, that I have been watching and waiting for you and that I might not be found asleep and like the foolish virgins. I pray Holy Spirit that you keep me vigilant in guarding myself from falling away and going to sleep.
I pray Lord; show me now what things I may know for now and what things I might report to your people. My heart is sad and heavy with the constant thought of those who will stand before the Lord saying, “Have we not prophesied in your name and have we not done many great things”? And the Lord will say, “Depart from me, I never knew you”. This is the most sobering thought from scripture I know. It is the one that strikes terror into my heart because I have been so involved in the prophetic. How is it so many do not give this more serious thought when it is clear that those who will stand before the Lord in Judgment will obviously be those who thought they were “in the Lord” and doing His work. Those false prophets do not believe they are false even when their prophesies do not come true. And now many say that if the prophecy does not come true it is NOT because they prophesied falsely. They say that all your words are contingent on us to fulfill something on our part to cause it to come to pass. How can this be the true Holy Spirit? How can any who prophecy NOT use this as an excuse for all of their words that DO NOT come to pass? How can we know a false prophet if this is true, that ALL prophecies are contingent upon us and that you cannot or do not perform your will and promises based on your promise to do so?
Those changes that are coming Lord, please speak to me now as I try to listen. The world will change in drastic ways. We have no idea how drastic are those things that are coming that will so rearrange the way we live. Natural elements will happen. Tornadoes will exceed previous records. The wind in the Oklahoma tornado of 1999 reached 318 miles per hour, yet I am aware there are coming those that will reach 350 and greater. I know that hail will come that will have immense damaging power. The weight of these hailstones will be many, many pounds… I fear to express here how much some might weigh. Concerning these hailstones the time frame for those may be more down the road then other natural disasters that will precede them. Large hailstones can be formed in the process of nuclear explosions which I feel will be the case as nuclear exchanges come. Whether we want to admit it or not or that it may be a form of denial… though we acknowledge we feel nuclear exchange is inevitable, we still do not… or are not able to perceive it actually happening. We cannot put such things into a framework of actually happening, yet that is very much part of what is coming. It will happen and it is not a matter of it “might happen”. Lord help me focus here, I know we can write about many things that will come and are coming and all those things that will come in the Tribulation… but Lord… help me write not so much about those elements of the Tribulation, but help me write what is for your people to look for.
The Lord I feel is STRONGLY saying, and I stress that very much, that we are at the brink of having our lives changed very drastically and very abruptly. I pray that we are able to handle such changes. I pray that we are able to let go of the “comfortable” and predictable courses of our lives and I pray for peace upon God’s people that as these events suddenly come and changes life as we know it, that God’s people will have a supernatural peace in knowing that these things are actually bringing us closer to the bosom of God in preparation for the return of Jesus. Lord help us not care anymore for those things which draw us away from preparing for your return. Help us to lay down those things that occupy our attention from sensing your approach. We have always said, “Jesus is coming back”, but now the word “approaching” comes to mind and it conveys a meaning that is much closer. Prepare for change. Expect change and try to welcome these changes as they come because they are designed primarily to bring us on track and in His will to set our minds and hearts in order for soon meeting with our Lord. We WILL be with Him very soon… very, very soon. There is the overpowering point to all that I am feeling = Change… sudden change, a drastic re-arrangement of our lives and directions and our hearts. We will be walking away from many things we have pursued in life and many things we have pursued all of our life. These pursuits will start dropping away from us like leaves dropping from a tree in the fall. I am having heart changes going on these last couple of weeks that are truly new and different for me. The expectancies I used to have was for revival and in bringing in a harvest but now it is like I do not even have a heart so much for that… what has come into my heart now is a sincere desire to be looking and soberly waiting for the Lord. I have been drunk in my expectancies of God’s power being poured out and I have made many errors in that and in my assumptions concerning what I thought God was going to do on this planet. From many of those assumptions I have needed to “sober up”. I desire to remain sober and to NOT again become intoxicated with the prophecies of His power being poured out and His Glory showing up… all my heart wants now is for HIM to show up. And I do not want to be caught not looking for Him. Expect change, expect your old goals and desires to begin dropping away… even temptations and sins you may have fought with your whole life… they too will drop away as things you simply are no longer interested in… the desire and expectancy to see the Lord will supersede your desire to go after many previous sins and appetites. This is a very good thing. This is some very good news in itself. Some more specific words as we still remain on earth before we are with Him is truly that we must make Love the order of the day… our love for each other. We have engaged in massive amounts of holding old grudges and truly treating each other in ways that are really not pleasing to God. As we are given more and more the heart of God… as the leaves of our old ways start dropping off we will start acting like the children we are really supposed to be. Most Christians try to attain this quality of character through their own actions and will, but it is not really having the true heart of God and Christ in us… it is only performing as the Pharisees performed in trying to attain a form of perfection by their efforts and acts, but I must say and stress as much as I can that what is starting to come and happen now is coming and happening in the spirit and by the Spirit to bring into our hearts that true heart of God and of Christ. I pray as you read this you will receive what I am saying and begin to recognize the changes in you that are about to take place. You will know these changes are coming about by supernatural means because they will change you in ways you have never been able to change yourself… these are the graces and mercies of God at work… that He can redeem us from ourselves. I don’t want to be in love with God’s power, I want to be in love with God.
I have not been a good son. I have not been a disciplined son. This I confess openly and I have made many, many mistakes concerning the prophetic. I confess this openly to God and to the family of God. If it ever be in God’s will that I may yet fulfill a ministry I welcome it… I also admit I am too frail in myself to handle the persecution that may come with it. I am, in truth, as Peter was in denying Christ. At the least bit of trial anymore these days I fall apart and I try to run… that is really who I am. May God transform me and make me what I have not been… obedient, disciplined and acceptant of suffering. I find peace in what I am sensing in these changes that are coming. I have a peace like I have never had with anything else along this road. I have had many great and exciting visions since I was young… but I have never known peace… in what I feel coming… though earth shattering in element, I feel a peace and a deliverance I have long sought for. You should start looking for these subtle changes of heart because they are coming NOW and before the catastrophes and other national and international events that are on the way… before that there already is coming a changing within the heart… and with that I expect to hear back from some who will start actually seeing this come to pass in their lives. These are subtle, yet at the same time very unmistakable.
You are about to change in dramatic ways from the inside as the Holy Spirit creates in us a new heart preparing it to receive Jesus and changes that will come about externally from redirections of our lives on a personal level and on a national and international level as those things in the earth and in the governments are all rearranged.